Can ya dig it? That's my new catch phrase for whatever reason. Not sure why or where but started using it like 3 weeks ago and now everything is "Can Ya Dig It?" Anyway.....

Not much changing in the world of P right now - still job hunting - still looking for a good date - still deciding where in the US I could be happy living - still waiting on my ex to finish his end of the divorce bargain - still waiting ..........

Oh wait! One thing did change!! The color of my hair..... yeppers...... yours truly is no longer a blonde. Perhaps (if the mood strikes) I will do something to show the new hair color and post it up. But eeeeehhhhhh, who knows.

Something else that has randomly danced across my mind recently...... is all this digital communicatin we do hampering the way we handle real life relationships? I mean I have acquantances (not gonna mis-use the word friend) that they see me in real life they barely speak or act like they don't know me.... but put them in some chat room or message board or such and it's like we are the bestest of friends. I don't get it..... Ring a phone to actually say HELLO - out of the question.... maybe you can look for an email to come instead. While I love the ease all this technology offers I kinda miss the real world - the human interaction - the people factor. Funnier still .... most people in my real world sux as friends so I'm not sure exactly why I miss them! Anyway - that was my rant for the day.

I got and and and why not stop by for a visit? We can sit and chat a while.

Life is kinda sucking right now but ya know what? I really don't care right now.

I know, sounds kinda fricked-up doesn't it? But I have decided I am not going to let all this stuff get me down or bother me. I am just going to be happy right now no matter what it takes DAMNIT!

Something else I been thinking of recently....... how many of you mix up the use of the words friends vs acquaintances? I know I do very often, you will catch me saying "a friend" when the person really is nothing more than an acquaintance of mine. And do tell what differentiates the two for you?

Oh yeah and in case you guys missed it our fellow deviant finally got a DD ! Much love and congrats to you fella!

Big o' well wishes are going out to Jen she was one of my very first dA friends and now she has a special gift coming her way and I just want her to know I wish her the best!

A huge GET WELL SOON going to my secret love Chuck . He was in a motorcycle accident several weeks back that really screwed up his leg and stuff. But he is making progress (walked again for the first time this week) so offering up some encouragement to him.

Ok - so that is about it for today. Maybe if'n ya wanna and ya have a few mins visit my friends above let'em know we are thinking of them and stuff. Ya know - we all like to know we are liked and thought of and cared for even if only by our digital compadres!



blind find peace of mind
it's never what it really is
intention rejection little left away
crossing the bridge I'm on the way.

I just don't care like I used to
I don't care about you
I just don't care like I used to
I just care about you.


I got and and and why not stop by for a visit? We can sit and chat a while.

Not a lot to say really............ just felt like changig the journal

Could care less Star Wars opens this coming week but looking forward to seeing Madagacar when it opens. How can ya not look forward to a movie where the penguins are the bad guys!

Job hunt is slowing even more, I suppose because of summer coming or something. Decided I would like to move, not sure to where...... I recon that would be determined by where the job ends up being.

Looking for a new book to read - anyone got any suggestions? I enjoy John Grisham so perhaps something in the vein. Not a huge fan of sci-fi - just an FYI.

It's all about taking control !!!

and to ya all!

OK - I am coming back slowly but surely.......... For the handful of folks that did care and noticed I was missing in the first place, I am coming back. I just felt the need to take a break from several of the things I was doing pretty much every day. Ya know - a change of routine that hopefully brings on a change of attitude and a change of spirit. I am happy to report it did indeed actually do just that. I am happy right now - I am content with a lot of things and embrassing everything about life that is around me right now.

My apologies to sooooo many of the wonderfully talented people I watch, as I am sure I have missed many many submissions. I must admit I turned off all devwatches before I left. I knew I would be gone a while and would, logically speaking, never catch up on everything. So I promise my real friends I will visit you guys pages and catch up on all I missed soon! Just as quick as I can get back up to speed around here.

Thanks to for posting the wanted poster! I am back now so you put a "case closed" across it.

Also many thanks to a few special people that took the time to let me know they missed me!

& & & and

You guys are just tooooo special! and to each of you!


and to ya all!

BIRTHDAY WELL WISHES Got a couple of peeps celebrating birthdays this week (4/20) that I just have to wish the HAPPIEST OF BIRTHDAYS WITH LOVE to them.

First being my mom, whom I love very much! The second being one of my bestest friends =curtg! Pop on over and give him some b'day well wishes. Hope you both have the greatest of days and get some really cool prizes. _{I know CurtG has - he already got his gift}

I've been dealing with this annoying feeling of lonliness the last week or so. It's not something so bad it made me all yucky emotinally or nothing just an annoyance. I'm sure it'll pass soon but a couple of days has been so bad I've actually considered moving back in with my EX. Yeah - really stupid. Thinking if I can get on out and get back to work it will help by occupying some of my time.

The girlfriend I am living with has become concerned that I may have an eating disorder. I mean she has like almost become obessed over it. OK - I do NOT have an eating disorder. I eat when I am hungry and I keep it down when I do. Granted I do not over eat and I do not eat for reasons other than being hungry... if I am not hungry I may skip lunch, no big deal so let it rest.

Anyway..... that's about it for now. Hope you all have a great week ad are enjoying the change of the seasons (be whatever it may be from or to).

and to ya all!